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It's the worst,
not knowing...
I know you know, but I actually don't know.
You act so casual, as if nothing was said, as if nothing happened.
Everything is fine I say to myself, it's better this way,
even if he knows, he is acting this way to let you know he doesn't care.
But you know he does... it's not the first time... and he does care.
Or does he.
Its been so long,
you no longer know him, you no longer know yourself.
Its the worst
not knowing,
why did she stop writing,
she is not interested she says...
but I know she is, why would she ask for my number then?
Its been months now, forget it, why do you even bother thinking about it.
I want to text her, and ask why? or just to know what is going on,
why not?
its been so long,
you don't know yourself anymore, you don't know her, who is she?
Its the worst,
not knowing...
who are you, why are you here?
which path leads ahead, why should you keep on walking.
there is no path, there is only life, its the end of the road,
you make your own
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Thoughts that come at 2am
I am a sucker for love stories,
that's why I end up watching so many chick flicks,
and K-dramas, and youtube marriage proposals,
because in the end,
in my deepest heart of hearts,
I still believe in romance,
I still believe in love.
I've been a cynic,
and I am a skeptic, in so many ways...
I know all the theories and the philosophy behind love and how it can be torture,
but in the end....
 
I cant help it,
I will always fall for the guy who takes his time to know the girl,
or the guy that in a moment of absolute courage decides to come out of the closet for the man he loves, 
or the girl that dreams about a kiss, and feels her heart flutter with just a touch of her hand on hers,
I will always fall for the stories I see and even more so for those I create in my mind,
I will always fall for my own fantasies,
and that's ok...
that is how I learn to come close to people,
that is how Ive made some of my closest friends,
and sometimes that is how Ive lost some of them too.
The most
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Step by step
Healing is a process, it takes time.
When the skin is wounded, the first step is to clean.
You clean the skin from impurities,
you take care not to let it fester,
after some time, you need to throw away the bondage,
to throw away everything that is not needed anymore.
taking all that you thought you needed from someone,
and letting it all go.
After cleaning the wound, time comes for patching up,
depending on how deep the wound is it needs stitches or just a small band aid.
In some cases, it takes stitches, crazy glue, new skin and all your will power.
If a heart is shattered to pieces,
you have to find the pieces that fit, then glue them or stitch.
Then comes the time where the body does what it needs to do to heal,
the wound can change colors,
from "rage" green, to "cried my eyes out" red,
from "I took a punch" purple, to "this is not my skin" white.
It takes its time, it hurts,
and sometimes, when you do something wrong,
or when you let someone touch the wound before its completely h
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PhoenixEmi
Emilia
Ecuador
I am just a human, learning how to live in this crazy world. I love watching people develop though their art! I like steampunk, gothic art, photography, all kinds of writing... music, and life!....
I mainly write, poetry, prose, lots of things that come into my mind. If you have any questions you are welcome to write and ask me!... remember to have a great day, every day!
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It's the worst,
not knowing...
I know you know, but I actually don't know.
You act so casual, as if nothing was said, as if nothing happened.
Everything is fine I say to myself, it's better this way,
even if he knows, he is acting this way to let you know he doesn't care.
But you know he does... it's not the first time... and he does care.
Or does he.
Its been so long,
you no longer know him, you no longer know yourself.

Its the worst
not knowing,
why did she stop writing,
she is not interested she says...
but I know she is, why would she ask for my number then?
Its been months now, forget it, why do you even bother thinking about it.
I want to text her, and ask why? or just to know what is going on,
why not?
its been so long,
you don't know yourself anymore, you don't know her, who is she?

Its the worst,
not knowing...
who are you, why are you here?
which path leads ahead, why should you keep on walking.
there is no path, there is only life, its the end of the road,
you make your own path from now on...
why are you not making your path...
its been so long...
you no longer recognize your dreams anymore, where are they?

Its the worst,
feeling anxious all the time,
not knowing, what is this feeling?
not understanding, why do I feel this way?
not feeling, where did my drive, my motivation go?
the path ahead does not exist.

    And its the worst,
                 not knowing,
                      what comes next...
I am a sucker for love stories,
that's why I end up watching so many chick flicks,
and K-dramas, and youtube marriage proposals,
because in the end,
in my deepest heart of hearts,
I still believe in romance,
I still believe in love.

I've been a cynic,
and I am a skeptic, in so many ways...
I know all the theories and the philosophy behind love and how it can be torture,
but in the end....
 
I cant help it,
I will always fall for the guy who takes his time to know the girl,
or the guy that in a moment of absolute courage decides to come out of the closet for the man he loves, 
or the girl that dreams about a kiss, and feels her heart flutter with just a touch of her hand on hers,
I will always fall for the stories I see and even more so for those I create in my mind,
I will always fall for my own fantasies,
and that's ok...
that is how I learn to come close to people,
that is how Ive made some of my closest friends,
and sometimes that is how Ive lost some of them too.

The most important thing is to know that..
people in your life come and go,
But those who leave a mark are those who teach you most about yourself.
Cherish those moments, and never corrupt them with hate or anger,
love the moments you get with those who come,
and keep close to your heart the ones that you know will be gone soon.

Love, let go, live.
that's why In the end I am a sucker for love, 
because stories don't need happy endings,
they just need a touch of romance,
a hint of goo goo eyes,
and the power to make anyone feel that anything and everything is possible.

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Mayeru Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Feel free to check out my Tumblr and Instagram.
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PhoenixEmi Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2017
you are very welcome! ;)
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CristianoReina Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch Blow kiss Rui Kiss Icon 

if you want, followme 

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PhoenixEmi Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
You are very welcome! ;)
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CristianoReina Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Tadashi Kiss kiss Yayoi Takatsuki + Mami Futami Emote - Glomp/Hug Adorable Girl Anime Emoji (My kawaii plushie) [V6]
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Zora-Steam Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey thanks for watchin!
Ouu you like goth n steampunk tooo
You should try cyberpunk n synthwave ouo
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PhoenixEmi Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
You are welcome! I love cyberpunk too... Ill check synthwave now thanks for the recomendation! ;)
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Zora-Steam Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Yas!
Its so cool i think youll like it >:3
Also watch kungfury xD
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SilentDreamer-Art Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hi!
Welcome to DA!
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PhoenixEmi Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
Hey thanks! I have to confess Im not completely new, had another account, but decided I needed to change!!! But thanks for the support!!! its always appreciated!..... have a great day! ;)
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